Closure-

I don't even want to look through this blog to see how much I mention DB or what I even say. Thankfully, when I started in my new beautiful journal I didn't include him. I will always always always have a place for him in my heart but I can't be with him. I just need closure, that's all. I used to think I just needed to kiss him one last time but I don't think that's it. That would be detrimental though I do dream of it still. Today I realized my closure is coming in the form of someone who makes me smile and thinks my boys are cool. In fact my boys think he's pretty cool too. There are no pretenses no tension and we may end up just being friends but that's okay too. I like his company. He may not know everything about me like DB does but who really needs to know everything? That's what best friends are for. Maybe that's what DB was meant to be to me anyways.

I know I'm a flighty Gemini who has gone through men-You don't need to remind me. I just haven't found what I wanted yet and when my stomach gets that panicky anxious knot I know to run-Which I do well. I enjoy debauchery from time to time too but who knows what the future holds. For now I'm just going to sit back, quit trying to figure it out, and let life unfold. I'd give up my debauchery for this one. (Am I admitting this outloud? I need to stop jinxing myself!)