Upon reading my own blog I realized something-

I was pretty snarky the other day. Chalk it up to wanting to go get my coffee on the way to work on by myself and being violated by the stalking smother-er. Unfortunately that is my only 'alone time' until late at night and I'm pretty protective of it.

Anyways, I said something that I need to clarify-Not for all 4 people who read my blog but for myself. One of my reasons for u-turning (BTW I did that u-turn in record time!) the other day was We aren't in the same place right now. He's wanting to give someone his heart and I'm not wanting to give anyone anything. That's not entirely true. I want to be able to give myself to someone but it seems that everytime I do I've made yet another bad choice. I think I've taken the crown in that pageant. That and the fact that there needs to be something there to want to take that step. That step just isn't done in a month-At least not in my book. I need a sign, a spark, a something. I'm not meant to be hum drum and boring which would have been the case if I hadn't cut and run.

Enough rambling, I need more caffiene.