Upon reading my own blog I realized something-

I was pretty snarky the other day. Chalk it up to wanting to go get my coffee on the way to work on by myself and being violated by the stalking smother-er. Unfortunately that is my only 'alone time' until late at night and I'm pretty protective of it.

Anyways, I said something that I need to clarify-Not for all 4 people who read my blog but for myself. One of my reasons for u-turning (BTW I did that u-turn in record time!) the other day was We aren't in the same place right now. He's wanting to give someone his heart and I'm not wanting to give anyone anything. That's not entirely true. I want to be able to give myself to someone but it seems that everytime I do I've made yet another bad choice. I think I've taken the crown in that pageant. That and the fact that there needs to be something there to want to take that step. That step just isn't done in a month-At least not in my book. I need a sign, a spark, a something. I'm not meant to be hum drum and boring which would have been the case if I hadn't cut and run.

Enough rambling, I need more caffiene.

And the flighty Gemini is back!!!!

Oh thank heavens-I am back. The commit-o-phobe is back and better than ever. I was begininng to get worried too. As for X, I have finally learned to u-turn and for several reasons. Here goes:

1. He's a smother-er
2. Ever heard of the Virgin Theory? It's no longer a theory-It's a fact.
3. We aren't in the same place right now. He's wanting to give someone his heart and I'm not wanting to give anyone anything.
4. Sybil-She's worse. Was nasty to me in front of Turtle the other day-And Turtle not only picked up on it but keeps bringing it up as it puzzles him.
5. I'm not ready to tell my kids I'm dating someone they know AND in continuing to do so I have to. Why would I have to do something I'm not prepared to do? Because his stupid X doesn't understand the difference b/t too much info and honesty. The kids do not need to know every detail of our lives which she feels needs to be done.
6. He's taken to showing up at my fave morning haunt. And I've given up Starbucks for Lent but I may have to take it back just to avoid him in the morning. I feel violated.

I swear I'm not just looking for reasons to ditch and run for cover. I just cannot deal with all of the above. I've tried to make it loud and clear but I'm going to have to draw pictures..I can see it now.